Tsonga Princess

I thought the hardest part of loosing my grandad would be the overwhelming sadness that came with loosing a loved one but I was wrong the hardest part in dealing with his death would be the loneliness and emptiness of not having him around. I miss the sound of his voice screaming across the house to let my brother be, I miss the sound of his footsteps as he walks towards the tv room for his daily dose of local and international news. I miss the sound of his laughter as he comments on the happenings of some tv character on one of his beloved soaps but most importantly I just miss him. It feels strange to be in his house without him. I feel a little lost and lonely at the same time. I feel like I'm in a dream and any minute from now I'll awake and everything will be back to  normal. I keep questioning myself, asking myself questions like would I be happier if he was alive but still in pain - if him being alive means I no longer feel this empty void inside of me. I wish I wa...

Why... Sometimes the people who are the strongest are the one's who have to carry the biggest loads. This week I have come to realise that the people who depend the most on you can sometimes use your strong will as a crutch to get over big hurdles in life. I just sometime wish I had a fast forward the bad stuff in life, but I can almost hear the answer in my head about how all the bad stuff is the stuff that will groom you in life. I just wish sometimes it would not be so tough. I just want to do what I love, work hard to pursue my passion and laugh at all the silly thing in life...why does life have to be difficult?

New Year, New resolutions? Last year when my mom and I were driving back home for the holidays she asked me what my plans were for this year and if I had any resolutions that i wanted to make for the following year. My answer was a  resounding no! If I had learnt anything from the previous year was that one does not make any plans unless they had every intention of sticking to them, and since my only plan was to take each day and each challenge as it came, I choose to not make any New Year's resolutions this year. I want to live in the moment, I want to face each challenge as it comes without constantly looking back to a plan I made under different circumstances or situation. If and when I make solid plans I do want them to be influenced by the haze and excitement of a 'New Beginning/Year' I'm eagerly awaiting a year full of surprises, new friendships and challenges that will change and shape me for the better...Happy New Year

Pursuing change I’m scared; I’m doubting whether or not I will be able to do. Do I have the courage to stand and fight for what I want do I have the courage to pursue change. A lot of new and interesting things have been taking place at work, a lot of new areas for growth and a lot of new learning opportunities have come my way. At the begging I was scared to take them because I kept thing what would people say, what if I’m taking on more work than I can handle, what if I fail? So for a moment I was considering running away from the challenge, staying put in my little box of comfort. Why did I need to shake things up anyways, my life was great just as is. As I was on my way to tell my colleague ‘Thanks but not thanks, I’m happy where I am right here’ she told me something that gave me courage to go ahead and swim into the unknown...sometimes you have to pursue change. So what if I fail, so what if things are not easy and I have to fight to get my recognition, so what i...

Recently I have been re-thinking my role as a woman in the workplace. Now for those who know me, you know that I’m known for spotting what Siso – an old friend – used to term the 'Eminem' look. Now the Eminem look consists of a jean, t-shirt, hoodie and my favourite accessory a size 5 pair of Nike’s. This look works best for me because it draws attention away from my looks – which I prefer - to my talent. I love being a wall flower, that the best place to get to know everything about everyone.  Then recently I came into contact with Lee who made me rethink my 'Eminem' look. Now this Lee is the complete opposite of me. She is the girly girl type , look my best, hair done, nails done everything done, so trust me when I say - not in a million years would I have believed that we would have anything in common. One day we were in the staff kitchen together and started talking. Somewhere along the way we stumbled onto the difference between feminism and equalism (ye...

The taxi driver is always wrong? Today on my way to work, I witnessed what I thought was one of the most profound moments in taxi driver history. So I was waiting a for a taxi to take me on my last journey before getting to work, I see an almost empty taxi on the far right of the road, so I don’t even try to flag it down because it means it is not gaping to take passengers. However to my disbelief this guy swerves into the far left lane – while the robot is red might I add – in front of other cars. When the robot turns green and the taxi come to a halt in front of me. Once I was inside I could here what was the ending of an argument between the driver and one of the passengers. The passenger was angry that the taxi driver had dangerously cut before other cars, he went on to tell him that driving like that was not only dangerous to him but to all the other people on the road. I chuckled a bit because I thought this guy was flagging a dead horse – most taxi drivers (and some pas...

 Would be Housewife... I complain a lot, yes I am honest enough to know that complaining is one of the many things I do well in life. I use public transport to get to work - best believe that from getting off the train to getting on the taxi that will eventually take me to work I would have at least found five different things to complain bout. The music is too loud in the taxi, the passengers on the bus thinking they own the space, the person next to me is chewing so loud I can’t even here myself think.... the list does go on but I don't want to encourage my inner complaint. So one day as I was going on my very famous complaint route, I turned to one of my colleagues and say to her - "You know my life would be so much easier if I was a housewife'. She stops, turns and looks at me, with a rather puzzled look on her face and asks - 'Why'. I then told her: ‘That life would be easier for me if all I did was stay home and bake stuff”. Now before all the aw...