We have to start somewhere:

The start of a new year is always a wonderful thing. This means that we have been blessed with one more to do all the things that we were unable (or unwilling) to do the year before. It is also a year for reflection, where you look back at how far you have come and how far you want to go.

This time of reflection can revel many things. It could reveal all the traits we did not even know we had, all the good and…some of the bad stuff as well. As I write this I am in that time of reflection looking at all the choices I made, the things I think I did good and the things I wish I could erase in its entirety.

During this time of reflection I have come to learn two things: One, sometimes we need an inside look – not a depressing look – but sometimes I think we need to be honest with ourselves about who we are, what we want and what we believe. The second thing is: learning to deal with what we find once we take at honest look inside our hearts. It’s never easy to admit that one has imperfections, but if don’t admit these things even to ourselves then there’s no learning. Without learning there’s no growth.

This song below I feel best explains how I feel right now...

Toby Mac – City on our knees


If you gotta start somewhere
Why not here?
If you gotta start sometime
Why not now?
If we gotta start somewhere I say here
If we gotta start sometime I say now

Through the fog
There is hope in the distance
From cathedrals to third world missions
Love will fall to the earth like a crashing wave

First Chorus:
Tonight's the night
For the sinners and the saints
Two worlds collide in a beautiful display
It's all up tonight
When we step across the line
We can sail across the sea
To a city with one king
A city on our knees

If you gotta start somewhere
Why not here?
If you gotta start sometime
Why not now?
If we gotta start somewhere
I say here
If we gotta start sometime
I say now

Chorus

Tonight could last forever
We are one choice from together
Family, we're family
You and me, yeah you and me

Second Chorus:
Tonight's the night
For the sinners and the saints
Two worlds collide in a glorious display
It's all up tonight
When we step across the line
We can sail across the sea
To a city with one king
A city on our knees

If we gotta start somewhere
Why not here?
If we gotta start sometime
Why not now?

Comments

  1. Anonymous23 January 2015 at 15:22

    Well said indeed we need time to reflect and deal with the results of that reflection

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