Moving into your dreams without fear
Resigning from my job was one of the hardest but most fulfilling things I've ever done in my life. I spent hours trying to word the resignation letter correctly, making sure it was convincing not just to my soon to be former employees but also to myself because I knew that as soon as I hit send there was no turning back. Then almost an hour of screaming and my former boss patronizing me and telling me how I did not utilize my time at work right - with a straight face mind you - it was at that instant that she looked me in the eyes and could so convincingly lie to herself about my role in her company that's when my light bulb moment came on and I knew it was time for me to leave.
I spent the first few days after my resignation on a relative high, laughing, joking, sleeping and eating well for the first time in months. I felt like the load over my shoulder had been lifted and I could feel that the old me was coming back. After months of looking at myself in the mirror and not recognizing the person I see in the mirror on a daily basis it was a welcome relief to be able to at least make some strides to becoming the person I think I need to be or should be.
What really propelled me forward was waking up everyday to see the rest of my family wake up and go to work and for me to stay home and do nothing - well I had plans that I was putting into motion but the process of working and starting to build up my brand/company seemed a lot slower than they show it in the movies. I spent a lot of the first few weeks crying trying to figure out what my next plan was but once I figured out my next move I moved like a beast towards it.
The focus and determination that propelled me forward every single day gave me purpose and passion which helped when days went very bleak and and I had to keep myself very motivated plus the added pressure that I had already resigned and I had to put all my energies into making this work come what may. During that time I learnt what it meant to be in peace with every decision I kept making, to be in peace within the space I was occupying but most importantly to be in peace with God and the path I had started walking on.
Was I afraid absolutely but I knew that this was not the time or place for fear so I kept pushing, I kept moving because I had no choice but to move one foot ahead of the other. I don't know what will happen tomorrow or the day after and the months after that but what I do know is that I need to keep moving forward into my dreams without fear. The vision is big and as long as I know God has me I'll keep trusting that I need to move forward at any cost because someone once told me that even standing still is a choice.
I spent the first few days after my resignation on a relative high, laughing, joking, sleeping and eating well for the first time in months. I felt like the load over my shoulder had been lifted and I could feel that the old me was coming back. After months of looking at myself in the mirror and not recognizing the person I see in the mirror on a daily basis it was a welcome relief to be able to at least make some strides to becoming the person I think I need to be or should be.
What really propelled me forward was waking up everyday to see the rest of my family wake up and go to work and for me to stay home and do nothing - well I had plans that I was putting into motion but the process of working and starting to build up my brand/company seemed a lot slower than they show it in the movies. I spent a lot of the first few weeks crying trying to figure out what my next plan was but once I figured out my next move I moved like a beast towards it.
The focus and determination that propelled me forward every single day gave me purpose and passion which helped when days went very bleak and and I had to keep myself very motivated plus the added pressure that I had already resigned and I had to put all my energies into making this work come what may. During that time I learnt what it meant to be in peace with every decision I kept making, to be in peace within the space I was occupying but most importantly to be in peace with God and the path I had started walking on.
Was I afraid absolutely but I knew that this was not the time or place for fear so I kept pushing, I kept moving because I had no choice but to move one foot ahead of the other. I don't know what will happen tomorrow or the day after and the months after that but what I do know is that I need to keep moving forward into my dreams without fear. The vision is big and as long as I know God has me I'll keep trusting that I need to move forward at any cost because someone once told me that even standing still is a choice.
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