Sink or Swim

Recently I have been taking stock of my life and my actions. I know what some of you might be thinking...this girl has too much time on her hands. Technically that's not true if anything I have to squeeze in time to write all these thoughts down.

And no, I did not go away to some retreat - where I was sitting cross legged for hours trying to connect to my inner self (not that there's anything wrong with people who do that) it's just not for me. I would have to be dragged kicking and screaming before I see myself doing that anyways I digress from the main point here.

Recently during one of my television binges - don't judge me - I came to a startling realisation I'm watching people get paid or at least my watching them is constantly. That made me realise that it's time for me to start making great television rather than sitting and watching great television.

 I have all these dreams and ideas that I keep idle in my mind because I am so scared to go after what I want to I sit and watch other make money while I comment about all the things I could change or improve. I've taken a step forward towards reaching that dream so in the words of someone great who probably died a while ago - I am either going to sink or swim...

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