I love you, I really do....

I love you, I really do. I'll give you all I have with an earnest heart. I'll be with you through thick and thin. When the storms rage I'll be right there with you - breathing the same air - holding your hand as we weather the storm together. During the good times I'll be there too holding your hand as well smile through the small and big blessings that come our way. I want, no I need you to know that I love you.

There'll be days when I'm mad at you and I'll say things I don't mean. I need you to understand me enough to know I don't mean all those this it's just in the heat of the moment people say and do things they later grow to regret. In those moments I need you to forgive me, because I love you. There'll be days when I'm moody and don't want to talk to anyone - sometimes that no talk list might include you but I need you to know that doesn't mean I love you less it just means I'm gong through a selfish stage and I need you to bear with me because I love you.

When I lose my faith because the people who were supposed to help me grow have turned against me love me more. Please bear with me during these rough transitions in my life. Because I love you, I really do.

There will be days when I feel on top of the world dreaming big dreams - during those days walk with me on cloud nine. Unfortunately there will also be days when I refuse to get out if bed because the world will seem like a harsh and scary place - even during those days I ask of you, plead with you even, hold my hand even tighter then because I love. I love you, I really do love you.

If one day we say things to each other that has us thinking of turning our backs in each other, I ask that you remember only the good times. I ask that you remember that I love you, I really do. I want you to remember me fondly with a hint of a smile, that beautiful smile that made me fall in love with yu because I love you, I really love you.

However if God grants me the responsibility of having your heart for the few minutes we have here on earth then I want you to know that - I trust you more than I trust myself. I thank you for putting up with all my mood swings and everything else mentioned above. I thank you for knowing all my flaws and yet still choosing to be with me. I thank you for standing with me when all hope was lost and everyone (friends and family) told you to leave me, you stood by me.

I treasure every moment spent with you - even the moments where we made each other cry, hurt each other with senseless words, the moments when we laughed ourselves silly. The good, the bad and even single moment in between because I love you, I really do. You and I breath the same air, God knows I love you. I really, really, really love. If nothing good comes out of my life I need you to know that loving you was one of the greatest things that ever happened to me.

I love you, I really, really, really love. You and I breath the same air because I love you. I really, really, really, really, really, really love you.

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