Be Amazing in your Greatness - But no Ego’s Allowed

Today I realised something...It shook me to the core when I heard myself say it out loud - not because it wasn’t true but because I had never said it out loud.

                     I AM AMAZING!!!

I smiled a little when I heard myself say it because for the longest time I had heard people tell me how amazing they thought I was, cousins trying to make me feel more than what I felt by showering me with praise. Then existing for years believing that I was not enough even though people kept shouting from the top of the metaphorical mountain, how amazing they thought I was.

So Today Friday, 13th 2020 I finally admitted it to myself - I AM AMAZING.

Me telling myself that doesn’t come from a place of ego or even boastfulness but there are times when you just have to look at yourself in the mirror and declare how amazing you really are. This realisation also made me reflect on the type of women I surround myself with because your circle should be your biggest motivator. Even as I acknowledged how many amazing women I’ve surrounded myself with, there were still some women I thought should thank:

1. The women who have my back, stand by me through thick and thin. Women who think I am amazing no matter what I do. To those women I say thank you, your support, love and encouragement means a lot to me.
2. To the lukewarm women - those who say all the right things but don’t always behave in the right way. I thank you as well because, you keep me on my toes, constantly having to navigate murky waters of ~is or isn’t she~ such mental adventures have added to my amazingness.
3. Last but not least to the women who openly don’t vibe with my spirit, you too add a little something to my pot amazingness.

As the song goes ‘I’ve been going through some changes’ and can I tell you a secret….I
actually love the woman that looks back at me in the mirror.

The woman whose smile is sometimes so bright it might outshine the sun, the woman who cries in the darkness of her bedroom because her spirit can’t take anymore. But mostly I love the woman who continues to pray in and out of season.

Affirming myself did something for my soul today. I felt lighter, happier and just a little different. I absolutely love the fact that for once I am betting on m - fighting hard for me and mine *you can’t see me write now but I’m actually smiling ear-to-ear as I write this love letter to myself*

Ladies - men - reading this it’s ok to toot your own horn sometimes, because on those days when you feel at your lowest that distant blaring of your horn will push forward.

P.S. Be amazing but don't let your ego get the best of you

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