Tsonga Princess

So today I thought instead of being deep, reflective or complaining I should right a young post about showing gratitude. Sometime we walk around so deep in our thoughts and we forget to be grateful for the small blessings that we receive. So my challenge to myself this week is to live outside myself long enough to be grateful for everything that comes my way. Not everything that comes my way do I need to handle somethings I can do without. That's it be thankful. Short and sweet...

Recently I’ve been struggling with a colleague of mine who constantly belittles me, nothing I ever do is great enough for his royal highness, he argues with me at any given chance over the smallest of mole hills (at least that’s how I feel). I feel discouraged and constantly question whether or not I’m cut out the cut throat world of television where I either kill or be killed in order to survive. I question whether or not I’m good enough and if I would not be better off doing something else. At this point in my life I feel like this is a bad space to be in because my first thought when I get to work is when can I get over this so that I can go home, I’m constantly time watching willing it to be 2pm so that I can see how much I can do before its appropriate for me to leave without looking suspicious. Now don’t get me wrong I love television, there’s no aspect of it I don’t love, from conceptualizing, to creating right down to the finished product that the nation watch’s on their...

What is my worth... is it in the way I do my hair - braided, cornrows, weaves or simply cut short? Is it the way I speak, how loud my voice is, how opinionated I am or how much back chatter I give to you at any given moment? Is it in the way I dress - skirt too long, jeans too tight, thong showing as I bend down? Is it in the walk I walk - too fast for you to catch up with me or too slow I'm constantly running behind you? Is it in my thinking - too independent for a man to love yet too traditional to blend in with the times? Who gets to decide my worth anyways - the people who work with me and think they know me because I crack a few jokes with the? The people I live with who are constantly underfoot with me and think they know best because they are family and nothing they do will hurt me (intentionally) Maybe my friends get to determine my worth because we spend countless hours pretending to be honest with each other while knowing very well that we keep our deepest fears...

This is the kind of wife I want to be - one day in life....now before we go too far I want you to understand one thing, I'm not the biggest fan of marriage or at least I don't think I am, However my cousin who is soon going to be walking down the aisle promising his wife to be that only the ultimate separation - DEATH - will take him away from her. He said something to me that stuck with me about his future bride...here goes 'She stood by me when I was still deciding who I am. She spoke words of encouragement when I felt like the biggest failure. She pushed me to keep going even when I thought I was just standing still. She was in my corner for every battle I faced whether or not she agreed with my battle. But most importantly she loved me * then he did a dramatic pause * She. Loved. Me. ' I laughed a little when I heard him recite this to me because I kept thinking * this brother must have lost his whole mind *. I mean come on, his known this girl for such a l...

Doing the right thing is not always the nicest of things to do, because you never know what the person who your doing this 'right thing' for will see your gesture. Will they think your doing it to stand out, to be noticed or to get glory for always being 'right'. will they hate you, admire you or just plain take it the wrong way. Today I learnt a very big lesson when it comes to doing the right thing...no matter what you do when your back is against the wall and you have to choose between doing right or doing wrong, when you choose to do right even if it means standing alone in a crowd full of people some people will not like it. They will hate you not necessarily because you did right but because you stood for what you believed at the time to be right in that particular situation. It's not nice being alone or feeling alone because you did what was not popular in the sights of those around you. Today I personally know what it feels like to walk this empty road a...

I love you, I really do. I'll give you all I have with an earnest heart. I'll be with you through thick and thin. When the storms rage I'll be right there with you - breathing the same air - holding your hand as we weather the storm together. During the good times I'll be there too holding your hand as well smile through the small and big blessings that come our way. I want, no I need you to know that I love you. There'll be days when I'm mad at you and I'll say things I don't mean. I need you to understand me enough to know I don't mean all those this it's just in the heat of the moment people say and do things they later grow to regret. In those moments I need you to forgive me, because I love you. There'll be days when I'm moody and don't want to talk to anyone - sometimes that no talk list might include you but I need you to know that doesn't mean I love you less it just means I'm gong through a selfish stage and I need y...