R.E.S.P.E.C.T. ME

Recently I’ve been struggling with a colleague of mine who constantly belittles me, nothing I ever do is great enough for his royal highness, he argues with me at any given chance over the smallest of mole hills (at least that’s how I feel). I feel discouraged and constantly question whether or not I’m cut out the cut throat world of television where I either kill or be killed in order to survive. I question whether or not I’m good enough and if I would not be better off doing something else. At this point in my life I feel like this is a bad space to be in because my first thought when I get to work is when can I get over this so that I can go home, I’m constantly time watching willing it to be 2pm so that I can see how much I can do before its appropriate for me to leave without looking suspicious.

Now don’t get me wrong I love television, there’s no aspect of it I don’t love, from conceptualizing, to creating right down to the finished product that the nation watch’s on their television screens at home. What I absolutely hate is the selfishness the industry creates in a person, having people thinking that its ok to put people down because you’re afraid of what power may come from them. I mean is it really worth it working as hard as I do to prove that I’m good at what I do and to constantly have guys like my colleague put me down because they think they know best or because they don’t trust your knowledge because you’re off a different gender to them?

So as I sit and write this post all I keep thinking is…do I love this industry enough to push through it all or do I cut my losses now and move on somewhere else in the hopes that it will get better? If I leave in the hopes of a better environment will I get the respect I want there?

I’m not asking for much just a little respect nothing else.