Happily Ever After....?

This is the kind of wife I want to be - one day in life....now before we go too far I want you to understand one thing, I'm not the biggest fan of marriage or at least I don't think I am, However my cousin who is soon going to be walking down the aisle promising his wife to be that only the ultimate separation - DEATH - will take him away from her. He said something to me that stuck with me about his future bride...here goes

'She stood by me when I was still deciding who I am. She spoke words of encouragement when I felt like the biggest failure. She pushed me to keep going even when I thought I was just standing still. She was in my corner for every battle I faced whether or not she agreed with my battle. But most importantly she loved me *then he did a dramatic pause* She. Loved. Me.'

I laughed a little when I heard him recite this to me because I kept thinking *this brother must have lost his whole mind*. I mean come on, his known this girl for such a long we all knew that this was going to end one of two ways. 1. She kills him for leaving her after she withstood everything from him or 2. He save's his life and marries her because lets face it no other women would put up with him. We continued talking for almost 15 minutes before he said the one thing I was trying to avoid during this entire conversation...*drum roll* find a guy who will say the exact same thing about you one day. 

Now because I know I'm a complete an utter commitment phob, I rolled my eyes and thanked the good Lord that he was not able to see me do that - he would have had something else to say about that. However I digress, I have to admit that after our conversation I thought a lot about what he said - which I guess is what he wanted - I didn't think about marriage per say but I did think a lot about the kind of wife I would be one day should I be brave enough. I kept thinking of the way he kept describing her and her virtue to me during our 15 minute long conversation and all I could think about was 'Man, I want to be that kind of wife'. The kind whose husband speaks so highly off even before we walk down the aisle together, the one whose husband loves so much that at every opportunity he can't wait to speak about her.

I don't know if his rose colored glass approach to life has altered my thinking on marriage but what I do know is that it had me soul searching looking deep within myself trying to make sense of it all. What I do know for the time being is that - I want to be that kind of wife...