Finding my happy

Recently I have have been having such a difficult time deciding what it is I want and how I want to go about making sure that the path I take is the right one for me. There are times when I feel like I'm drowning in a sea of in decision, where I just swim from one decision to the next. I can barely keep my head above water because I'm constantly swimming towards the next big decision that will change the course of my life in an instant. Then I came across this post I had written a while back -  but for whatever reason never actually published - that reminded me that sometimes you just have to trust where God is taking you even if you feel like your decisions are constantly pushing you against the current... 

When God prepares a path for you - you have two options.

1. Go with what He has prepared for you and trust that He will be with you.

2. Go against the current for as long as you can wasting time until you get back to the path He has laid for you.

Today I realised that I had been fighting the current for such a long time I didn't even recognise the path I was on. It was until two of my favourite colleagues and friends reminded me that I had asked to be pushed, I had asked to be stretched by God, to be moved to a place where I have no other option other than to close my eyes and trust that He knows the path better than I do.

So during my moments of deep introspection I decided that it was time to put my house in order.  Meaning I'm tired of swimming against the current hoping to get to my way with God even though deep down I know that I'm going the wrong way, I keep going hoping the the destination will change the further I push ahead.

So its always great having friends and colleagues that push you to be your best because they see potential and view your upgrade or promotion as something that needs to be celebrated rather than pulling you down to keep you under them. I value people who say come let me help you move up the ladder so that you can make way for those who come behind you.
As scared as I am, I'm going to give it my all. Push myself, pray and hope that I keep my eyes fixed solely on God and His path for my life. Also to keep being grateful, thankful and prayerful for those people who want to see me succeed in the hope that I will open doors for those who will come behind me...

“Don’t urge me to leave you or to turn back from you. Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God my God. Where you die I will die, and there I will be buried. May the Lord deal with me, be it ever so severely, if even death separates you and me.”
Ruth 1:16-17 NIVhttp://bible.com/111/rut.1.16-17.NIV

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