The darkness

 There are days where I think the darkness will overwhelm me. Where I open my eyes and see nothing but blackness. My body is pushing me forward because it knows I can't stand still yet my brain questions the need to move forward. I'm overwhelmed by the need to embrace the darkness and the thoughts that come with it. I can hear the whispers trying to pull me out of the darkness but I resist because coming out of the dark means feeling again and I'm not sure that my heart can take feeling again. I don't know if my heart can hold the dam of tears at bay shoukd I rise up against the darkness. So I sit, watching the inky blackness around me, shutting the whispers out. For today, I don't have the strength to confront the pain so instead I sit in it and just embrace it.

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